Wednesday, February 13, 2008

2 signs

1. Down one notch on my belt.

2. My pants that I bought at Target last year finally fit pretty well.

Are these good signs or even for real signs? I would like to think they are, but then again I am prone to psychotic fits of elation, so who knows really? I guess its between me and my belt loop, and my gut and my fat thighs.

Monday, February 11, 2008

Point Values

This morning I woke up late, 7:02, i had to leave in 18 minutes. I went into the bathroom to take a piss, as soon as I was done I washed my hands. I turned around to start the shower and all of a sudden I could feel my stomach turn, followed by cold sweats, shaking and dizziness. I felt like I might have diarrhea or something so I sat on the toilet and put my head in my hands, the sweat just pouring out of me like I had just stepped out of the shower. My legs were weak, my knees were weak, I had to lay down. I laid on the bathroom flower, my head still spinning, the sweat still pouring. I must've laid there for 10 or 15 minutes until it all started to subside and I struggled to my feet. I was soaking wet from the sweat so I stepped right into the shower and chilled myself out.
Maggie thought I may have the flu, but I didn't have any other symptoms. When I got to work, I went to WebMD and looked up my symptoms, none of them were very good diagnoses. But they all went along with other, move severe symptoms. There were three diagnoses that stood out to me: Malnutrition. Heat Stroke, and lastly Diabetic Shock.
Malnutrition, I'm not too sure about, if only because if anything, I'm better nourished now than I have been at any other point in my life. Maybe it was body going in a mini-shock for not being used to this diet, but I can't imagine it would have been so severe. Heat Stroke would be a weird one for sure, that only peaked my interest because of the fact that I have a heated mattress bad, and I like it really really warm, hot I would say. So getting out of the ultrawarm bed and into the ultra-cold surroundings could have shocked my body. The last one is easily the most terrifying and the most real. Diabetic Shock. One of the reasons I'm doing this, losing weight, is because I'm at high risk for Diabetes, the same disease that killed both my grandma and my mom. From my understanding, if it were diabetic shock, then I would have needed emergency care immediately. If not that, I would have needed to eat something very quick. It happened to my mom a couple times, oddly enough it was a spoonful of sugar that would bring her out of it. I'm a little off put by those prospects and if it happens again I plan on going to the doctor.
The reason that I don't go now is that I feel totally fine right now. As soon as I got out of the shower, I felt 100 times better. I feel great now, I felt great then. So my own personal inside doctor says it was just some weird fluke thing. It was like I was going to throw-up for the most part.
The other thing is that yesterday was the first time I ate something really heavy and fatty in weeks. We had beef roast for lunch and it was amazingly delicious, but I'm also thinking it could have contributed to whatever this morning was.